You Have Changed

you've changed,
your eyes don't leap with joy
when they meet the twinkle in mine
the way they would, then,
your voice doesn't echo my glee,
the way it would,
it doesn't ring music, nor, rain the longings,   
that'd set my heart racing,
come every evening;
i turn restless, still,
my breath still gallops shallow,
but it's to listen to your silence;
you've changed a lot,
you talk less,
but your silence speaks a lot more

you've changed
from the one, i knew, years back,
who let her heart speak,
wore an infectious smile,
and winked those talkative eyes;
you've changed a lot,
you lie through the teeth, these days
with words that sometimes hurt and cut,
but, in your quiet corner,
you pray hard, tear up,
sit up and write,
compile from life's torn sheets,
night after night,
to ring in,
that infectious smile, on me 

you've changed,
now from then,
you kept your smile growing,
and kept me going
the weeks, months, and years;
you were sweet,
caring and tender too,
but, you've changed a lot,
into a selfish you,
you're always there,
when the moist eyes are mine,
but cut me off,
when the blurry eyes are thine

you've changed a lot,
you always hide them
behind your eyes, shut tight,
it was the fond dreams then,
it's the dear tears and prayers, now
you'd feign an excuse to slip away, then
when you were weak,
and you knew, my heart longed for you,
you feign just the same, 
you turn away, even now
when i grow weak in my knee, 
and your heart skips a beat for me!




© sashikant mohanty