Are you God?

i place trust in god,
so do i, in you

that he takes time to answer,
doesn't mean
he's not listening,
so with you

he seems unmoved by prayers,
that moment,
or so we sometimes feel,
so are you

i believe in his grace
and kindness
but can't understand
why he leaves many out, in the cold;
i know your unfathomed concern,
care, and grace, as well
but wonder
why you still leave me alone

he's a stone,
and still invokes faith,
inspires hope,
so do you

he makes me impatient,
restless and choke up,
before finally showing up,
I'm restless,
but am clinging on to hope -
when will you?



© sashikant mohanty

Be Sure, I'm One

when you set your sight on the next goal,
and there are a hundred of them,
rooting for you,
be sure i'm one.

when you're under the weather,
and there's family praying for you,
be sure,
somewhere afar, i'm one, too

when you're by yourself,
rummaging through the messages,
and a line of tears is unstoppable,
you wondered if anyone truly understood,
and the thought crossed who to count on,
be sure, I'm certainly one

if someone is gasping for breath,
maybe knows he's on the home stretch,
and still praying for you,
be sure, I'm the one

if the phone stops ringing,
and there's none around,
to talk those silly nothings,
be sure, I am gone



© sashikant mohanty

You Are My Dream

you are a dream,
that rolls in, in my sleep,
and often, even with my eyes open,
you are a guest for moments,
and fade away quietly,
just as gently as you came

you are a dream:
every time you've visited,
it's been just moments,
they ring in hope, smiles, and tears
and then you're gone,
why do you do this?
why leave me longing and craving,
asking for more?

you are a dream:
i've rehearsed our songs, for tonight,
those i used to hum, and you'd blush,
and those lines, you'd shyly sing,,
the gifts are waiting,
the teddy, with a red-heart perched on the velvet,
and the dark chocolate bars, too
why does my heart race so fast, 
does yours skip a beat too, tonight?

you are a dream,
i long for, so badly, tonight,
hope's sitting on my eyes,
don't play hide-and-seek,
any more, my sweet,
i'm worn and done,
my smile's wrinkled, and eyes tired, too,
the lines etched deep,
as if it's time to sleep
come home, back to our nest, my dream
and don't, please, don't leave tonight!



© sashikant mohanty

Dreams Don't Fade

when my heart chokes up,
and eyes turn misty,
when i beg to see you again,
and don't see for days,
and fancy you yearning too,
and, wonder if i'm in your thoughts,
a ray of smile still lights up,
in the corner of my lips,
even if my thoughts
don't keep you up,
it's still about me

whatever you say,
dreams don't fade

sometimes, as i wonder
if the dreams we weaved
still keep you awake,
as they don't let me sleep,
and many kindle many more,
i know, one thing's for sure,
the only dreams you saw
were the ones with me

however much you deny, baby
dreams don't fade

when your thought tugs
at my heartstrings,
and the wait is endless,
and the days run into weeks,
and the months into years,
it's painful, here
it tears apart, there too.
how i wish
you don't miss us,
i will pull it off, somehow,
not getting to see your smiles,
or, not hearing your voice
for days,
but you?
i can't not be around,
when you're in tears 
without me!

your heart may not tell mine again, sweet,
but, dreams don't ever fade


© sashikant mohanty