Is Your Heart Ticking Still?

if my pains don't move you,
nothing ever will
if my words can't melt you,
my silence never will
if ​the unsaid word couldn't touch your heart,
nothing ever did or will​,
if my tears don't ​make you rush to see me,
my ​nothing ever will
if ​y​ou couldn't hear the fading beats of my heart,
nothing ever will
if my trust couldn't wake you​, and yours up,
nothing ever will

if seeing and feeling my truths
​don't let your truths flow,
what else will?
if my belief didn't inspire yours, honestly, forever
what else of anyone will?
if my blessings and prayers
don't make you bow with closed eyes,
what other gift from the gods will?
if my love couldn't thaw your heart,
what else will?
if my lonely existence doesn't tear you up,
​wonder if my death ever will?

​if my wait was not enough,
what more will?
if my suffering doesn't let the tears,
gush deep within you,
what other will?
if my eyes didn't let yours to speak,
what else ever, truly, will?
if my endurance couldn't keep you awake
or make you want
to snuggle against my chest,
what else in the universe will?

if after seeing me,
the ebbs and the flows,
the hands that held yours,
and the lips that prayed,
the heart that beats and cries for you,
the soul that longs to unite again with you,
when you can afford to unsee,
are your eyes breathing still?

if after seeing god - in flesh and blood,  
after the heavens melted
and blessed,
once the streams
of tears and joys overflowed,
after the river traced the barren sands,
and turned me into the sea,
and the surreal flowed, for you to see,
after your hands felt the creases on mine,
and your hand let mine feel the murmur of your heart,
after your eyes saw my scars,
and your wrinkled lips found my cheeks,
and the mind-numbing moments,
​when my thought doesn't get your heart
to skip a beat,
are you sure 
your heart is ticking still?




© sashikant mohanty