Too Close To Be Far Again

the missing breaths
when you're not around,
is my love,
the void -
you leave me in
is an insane craving for love
in all the myriad ways
you've let me get used to, again

the knots in my stomach,
without you,
or, sometimes even with you,
but looking away,
is my love;
the vacuum around,
is also longing for your love,
for the feelings
you've sown,
and the missing
of the dreamy eyes
that fed strength in mine
is my love as well;
when will you know -
how strong the wish,
to rush back to you again

the thought of distance,
scares me
the fears of whether
my thoughts still occupy your heart
sends chills down my spine,
but how can i complain,
after all the drizzles
you have showered,
after you've soaked my heart,
and fused
with my soul again?

as our eyes met again,
they locked, they paused a moment
as if to ask,
where were you so long?
your eyes rang in memories,
so intimate, yet so distant,
your eyes were volcanoes
as they held back the lava of tears,
lest i know how lonely you were, too,
as you wiped away my pains,
and straightened my wrinkles,
as you let your warmth seep through,
and you let the drizzle soak me,
you're too close to be far again!




© sashikant mohanty