Even When You Are Not There

even when you are not there,
you wrap me with your thoughts,
you surround me with memories, 
you inspire belief in miracles, 
that gets my heart
ticking again, every single time,
even when you're not there,
there isn't a moment you're not there

even when you don't speak for days,
our thoughts continue the banter,
frequenter than you and i would,
the 'good morning' that starts our days,
me asking if you had tea,
your message checking in on me,
exactly the instant when i thought of calling
'you'll live a hundred years!'
echoing in the ears of your heart,
even when you're not there,
there isn't a moment you're not there

even when you may not be around,
i speak to my loneliness,
what you'd be thinking,
how you'd be smiling recalling mine,
how you'd be breaking into tears,
how your tea cup
would be reminding of another,
how you'd humour me,
when i felt a bit lost,
we keep talking,
i and my loneliness,
even when you're not there,
there isn't a moment you're not there

even when you are not around,
the unruly breeze
pats my cheeks,
and wipes the trickling warmth,
stays with me,
until my heart beats straight,
just like you;
while breathing gets tough,
when the missing tears into me,
you never leave me helpless
alone,
even when you're not there,
there isn't a moment you're not there

even when you are not around,
on late evenings,
when i feel very lonely
or, on sundays,
when even my pillow seems lonely,
your voice rings in a smile,
so what it's from the memories,
even when you're not there,
there isn't a moment you're not there
with me!




© sashikant mohanty